How to stop being impulsive? I never had the opportunity to make my own decisions.

My parents and brother are abusive. When I turned 20, I could leave their house, but I have many issues to solve. I realized I don’t think too much before making a decision. I am much more emotional than rational, I’m desperate to make decisions, and anxiety is my last name. All the time I make decisions, I regret. I know I never had a chance to learn how to make my own decisions because my nparents never allowed me to be myself. I never had opportunity to choose my own clothes, my haircut, what to eat, what to like or dislike. So being an adult and have to make my own choices is very difficult for me. Plus, I‘ve been making mistakes when choosing my jobs… what is not good, this is horrible!

I want to solve this problem I have. I don’t know from where to start. This sounds very weird a person who doesn’t know how to choose my favorite icecream flavor because I don’t know who I am and what I like, so what about choosing my jobs... this is frightening.

I’ve been learning more about myself, who I am and who I was programmed to be. This is crazy how much I was brainwashed and depersonalized.